Today is day 1 of my unnamed challenge.
I almost failed. I almost failed because my bed is calling my name. I don’t want to be here writing at 11pm, but oh well…
This morning I stood up as soon as I heard the alarm.
Tip; put your phone to charge away from your bed!
Although I hesitated , I grabbed my notebook and attempted to write my morning pages. It was meant to be three but that seemed impossible for me. It’s 5 am , my brains not functioning yet give me a minute!
I ended up with only one page. And while I was brushing my teeth before heading to the gym I remembered I should have written things I’m grateful for.
I’ll be sure to remember tomorrow!
Turns out that a lot of people have not yet failed their new year resolution, meaning the gym was more busy than usual( for it being 5am ). Although cheers for everyone that got their ass up to make it to the gym so early… the bad part is I felt intimidated. So I ended up going to the “stretching area” and doing main of my workout there.
I thought about just copying a workout from youtube or instagram but I was just feeling intimidated and I left my wireless earphones at home.
Day 1 gym workout.
Glute machine 12×3
Hip opener v thing 12×3
Squat w pulses 10
Fire hydrant w/ donkey kick 10×3
Single leg raise standing 10×3
Single leg raise lying down 10×3
Stair master 5-6min
I made it to work 30min earlier. Work was work, I got a lot accomplished.
Last week I attended a meditation/yoga event. The name of the event was, ” Resolve to Evolve.” I loved it. Anyways , since I was new they gave me a free week to come join as many yoga classes as I wanted. So I took advantage of the offer and after work I headed to my very first legit yoga class.
It was packed and let me just say I sweated more than I did this morning at the gym!
I feel proud of myself for going in there even when I was unfamiliar ( and 10minutes late). Everyone in yoga seemed to been practicing for a long time already while me in the other hand… I struggled to maintain my balance. Being in a big packed room makes it so hard not to start my deadly habit of comparing myself to others.
But I’m trying. I’m trying to notice what my mind says of me, I’m trying to notice when I body shame myself once again.
We’re all lovely in our own unique way.
I have to remember , I have to remember.
After class I should have gone back to my apartment and get ready for the next day, but I had things I wanted to talk about so I went to a friends house.
“Asking for help, even if its just wanting someone to hear you, is not a sign of weakness.”
I wish I could say, “I’m ready for tomorrow. But tomorrow’s just Tuesday, and thing is…. I am ready to sleep in.